Destroy Me

I never meant to hurt anyone. I only treat her as a friend. My teasing went overboard and causing her to tear apart. I lost a friend and I lost her trust. My girl found out everything losing her trust in me. My world was torn apart by the game I should never played. It's kind of ugly, I shouldn't have gone to the clubs. I shouldn't drank so much liquor that caused me to lose my mind. I can't face my girl now after all these happened! She seemed to forgive and forget but I've lost confidence in myself.. God.. Destroy me.. I dont feel like living anymore!

Shouldn't have done it

There are a few things in this life that I have regret doing it. I shouldn't have done things that got me here. It's never good to be away from home. I should have learnt my first my lesson but I got complacent and let everything took over. Everything took over almost every single things! It seems like there's no way back. It's either to wait for things to happen or take initiative to make things work out.

When things ain't going my way when I am young, I always have my parents to decide for me. Now when things don't work out, I have to try my best to think of a way out. Sometimes, there are things I can consult my friends but certain things I can only solve it myself.

I tried to share my happiness and it ended up an arguement! I wanted to talk to her but was disturbed by my friends' distractions! Now she's angry as she wrote on her wall: Maybe we really have different perspective in life.

P.S. I just want to lead a simple life.

Life as it is

The wind chill was below subzero.

I was left freezing out there in the cold.

It took them quite some time to show up.

My hands and nose were almost numb.

I need the heat in Singapore to recover.

Just like how my family cure my illness.

Whenever I'm alone, I think of the beautiful time spent with Honey.

Though it was short, but it's the day I long wanted.

The day in Sentosa was wonderful.

The time with Honey was meaningful.

I just want to be back by her side once again.

A time when I can heal my pain.

My birthday celebration was short and sweet.

As we made a promise to stay together.

It's only distance that kept us apart but nothing else will do us apart.

I miss you Honey..

May I have a dance with you?

Too occupied to update..

Last weekend was Halloween Night.. Had a great time with my friends and kept myself from thinking about home. I missed HOME so much! How I wish I go back immediately...

I miss the time with my Honey, family and friends.. Will update my time with Honey in Singapore!

SURPRISE!!!

I had a rather good rest on my way to Singapore as I occupied 3 seats alone. It was fantastic as I was able to stretch my pair of long legs. With the excellent service of the air crews, I enjoyed my long journey back home.

At 1.30am, I finally reached my homeland! I'm really glad to see the faces of my own countrymen operating the airport at such late hours. After I took my luggages (luckily they were just as good), I went out of the arrival gate feeling like a rock star coming home. I looked around for my cousin Elmo who was the only person to know about my return. He fetch me at the pick up area and off we go to Simpang Bedok for my first meal in Singapore after 9 long months. Had a Roti parta kosong and another one with egg. Didn't really have a good appetite as I thinking about going home.

At around 3am, I was back! I tactically opened the door so that no one can hear me. My brother and his friends were playing mahjong at the that time and couldn't hear the little noise I made while carrying my luggages in. After placing my stuffs down, I walked discreetly to my room and opened my bedroom door. SURPRISE!!!

Eunice was dumbfounded when she saw me and shouted. "Why are you back?" The next moment, my sister rushed out from her room and hugged me. I can see how much she missed me. Haha.. My mum was still sleeping as it was quite late. I went into her room and woke her up gently. She thought it was a dream at first. That night, everyone helped me to unpack my luggages and I played my first mahjong game since February.

The next day, I went to have a haircut before looking for my next 'victim', my Honey. She was working in the night shift and stayed at her granny's house. I made a call to check out on her. After I had my haircut (finally being cut by a local!), I went to Honey's granny house. Granny almost spoil my plan when she announced my presence to my asleep darling. I excitedly went to my Honey's room and gently called out her name. She was too tired as she couldn't hear me until I held her hand. When she noticed it was me, she was bewildered and hugged me tight as if I'm leaving soon.

Sleepless night... 23 Sep 2010

As I was allowed to return home early from work, I cleaned my bathroom, tidied up my room and did the laundry. All these was done to prepare for my return from home trip. In my mind, I was too excited to be going home. I did not sleep the entire night as I was afraid I might oversleep and missed my flight. At 4.30am, I left my house, bidding goodbye to Poh.

I fetch Davin on the way whom is taking care of my car for the next 3 weeks. On the way to the airport, I was like driving in my dream. I was quite tired and there were a number of times my car drifted away from the road. Luckily, nothing bad happened as I reached the airport. I hurriedly removed my luggages from the car in excitement and constantly checked my passport. Before leaving to the airport, Davin surprised me with a birthday gift. Thanks to him! I was delighted to find out it was a Chelsea 2010/11 season away kit. Appreciated.

After I checked in my luggages, I had my breakfast while waiting for my flight to Salt Lake City. The wait was rather long and I made a phone call to my Mum. After waiting for an hour, finally I board my first flight, Boise to Salt Lake City. The flight was a short one as I slept throughout my journey. I couldn't even feel the plane taking off! As I alighted, I spent little time to walk to the next departing hall. This time was another short flight from Salt Lake City to Los Angeles Airport. It took approximately an hour to reach Los Angeles Airport where I can feel that home is near!

Los Angeles Airport was quite complicated leading me to understand why Singapore's Changi Airport is the best airport in the world. I had to take short shuttle service from domestic terminal to the international airport! Simply ridiculous! After checking in at the International Airport, I had my lunch at MacDonald's. I finished my lunch quick and moved on to the departing hall with two more hours to go.

After two hours of agony, I finally board the SQ flight. It's a long flight but the one I really enjoyed. It took about 10 hours to finally reach Tokyo Narita Airport where I can feel that home is very near! My excitement grew as I board the plane again after a short wait. This time, the destination is Singapore, my home.

My Fantasy.. Ended..

It's been a month since I updated my blog. Where was I? I went to a Fantasy of my own. A place I call Home.. A place where I found my happiness.. I missed it as I'm back.. I gonna write them down on my blog.. Those fond memories will always be in my mind.